Well....

OK, yesterday they didn't turn up for rehearsals, but we're fine now 'cause I've asked and we're gonna do the audition on Wednesday instead, so that's fine. And..... ummm.... that's about it, unless you count me being sooooo happy with my French marks! Oh yeah, worst seating plan ever, I'm sitting beside Findley, soooo annoying, so I wrote Loser in his homework diary =]. Ummmm..... Kier's OK and so's Michael. According to him everyone at the table is hopeless apart from me, yay! Hold on, this is Michaels oppinion...... There is something odd about him, according to like all my friends he's really horrible, but he doesn't seem like that to me, he actually seems quite nice to me! Is there something strange going on? This is weeeeeird. Ummmm.... today was the entrance exam and I saw all the people, I can't believe it, it doesn't seem like such a long time ago since the 1st years this year were taking their entrace exams, wow, almost in 3rd year. That is just, wow. Well, ummm... if you look at my blog of poems you'll find that I've added another verse to the one called To Lewie and I've got two more poems! All very.... depressing, one's called Alone(Solitude) and one's called War, and guess what, it's about way. So..... well, I haven't really seen Lewie that much, although I think I just saw him 2 days ago, but it just feels like it's been suuuuch a long time! I'm feeling so... I dunno. Read the last verse and you'll get it. And, checked on his page, he hasn't been on for 3 days! He must have been busy, 'cause the 4th years have got their exams. I should really forget about him, but, I just can't. Molly's right, I can't hide my thoughts or emotions, I'm hopeless at that. I just, I'm too open to people, and that makes it easier for them to hurt me, and it's so right. I just, sort of, break down. But, see, I still don't know and I think it's better if I knew, 'cause not knowing is bad, it's like there's this hole that gets larger every day, and it just hurts more and more. But, knowing means that would create a huge hole, but after time, it'll heal. I just don't know anymore! No, I need to know, I want to know!