Ever thought of what might have happened?

Well.... today, going through that.... time of the month...... if you don't get it it doesn't matter. But I've always been on a full moon and my emotions sort of get... well.... magified I suppose, everything I feel gets much stronger. And every day it's so different, and today, just feeling really sad and depressed and going through all the negative emotions. I've blab on more but I'm stopping myself, cause all of it is on my blog, the one with poems, even though when it ends it doesn't actually have anything to do with poems at all. Well you know, just feeling everything much more strongly than usual, and thinking of things. Like, things that might have happened if I chose another path, did somthing else, you know. A bit like in Doctor Who, you know, Turn Left when Donna if made to turn right in her past, and just one small choice changed the entire future. You know, just been thinking of all of that.
Like, what would have happened if my mum never made me go to a private school away from all my friends? What would have happened? For one, I would never have met Molly, Chloe, Kirsty, or any of the friends I have right now. I probably wouldn't ever have started this blog or anything else and there would be so many things I would never have done. So many people I would never have met or known to exist, I would never have met any of my friends, Molly, and, I wouldn't have ever met Lewie. If I went to the same school as all my friends, I wouldn't have met him and all the things. There are so many things that just wouldn't have happened. And if I didn't go there, who would have been the person Lewie wanted to give a high five to on the 1st day, and all the other times that followed, would he have even done that to anybody? I probably wouldn't even have gotten the Girls Chess Trophy and I wouldn't be in Tin Pan Ali and so many other things I would never have done, thing that would never have happened. The stories I've written, they're all based on the dreams I had, which were all set at the school, so I would probably never have had those dreams, and never written those stories. And the poems, who would I have written about? The ones I write, for Lewie, I would never have done them. Don't you sometimes just think that it seems so, amazing, I suppose, that one tiny desicion could effect the whole future. Like, if I never gave that note to Lewie, he might still be talking to me as a friend, and things like that. When I think of that, I just can't bare it. Even though sometimes I wish I could change the past, and if I could, I'd probably be too scared to do it, because I'd be afraid of what might happen, because it could change the whole future. Sometimes, I do think it'd be better that everything stays as it is, no matter what you could do to change it, what has happened has happened, and there's nothing you can do about it. I've learnt that now, I used to wish I could change so many things I'd done, but not anymore.

Sooooo bored

Well, I was so bored that I just blabbed on randomly on my other blog. You know, the one with poems. I was sooooo bored. Aaaaaand not gonna bother to say anything else cause there is nothing to say. Ummm.... yeah that blog was only suppose to have poems, but.... doesn't matter. It's all there. Read it if you want to and if you don't, I couldn't care less.

Well....

OK, yesterday they didn't turn up for rehearsals, but we're fine now 'cause I've asked and we're gonna do the audition on Wednesday instead, so that's fine. And..... ummm.... that's about it, unless you count me being sooooo happy with my French marks! Oh yeah, worst seating plan ever, I'm sitting beside Findley, soooo annoying, so I wrote Loser in his homework diary =]. Ummmm..... Kier's OK and so's Michael. According to him everyone at the table is hopeless apart from me, yay! Hold on, this is Michaels oppinion...... There is something odd about him, according to like all my friends he's really horrible, but he doesn't seem like that to me, he actually seems quite nice to me! Is there something strange going on? This is weeeeeird. Ummmm.... today was the entrance exam and I saw all the people, I can't believe it, it doesn't seem like such a long time ago since the 1st years this year were taking their entrace exams, wow, almost in 3rd year. That is just, wow. Well, ummm... if you look at my blog of poems you'll find that I've added another verse to the one called To Lewie and I've got two more poems! All very.... depressing, one's called Alone(Solitude) and one's called War, and guess what, it's about way. So..... well, I haven't really seen Lewie that much, although I think I just saw him 2 days ago, but it just feels like it's been suuuuch a long time! I'm feeling so... I dunno. Read the last verse and you'll get it. And, checked on his page, he hasn't been on for 3 days! He must have been busy, 'cause the 4th years have got their exams. I should really forget about him, but, I just can't. Molly's right, I can't hide my thoughts or emotions, I'm hopeless at that. I just, I'm too open to people, and that makes it easier for them to hurt me, and it's so right. I just, sort of, break down. But, see, I still don't know and I think it's better if I knew, 'cause not knowing is bad, it's like there's this hole that gets larger every day, and it just hurts more and more. But, knowing means that would create a huge hole, but after time, it'll heal. I just don't know anymore! No, I need to know, I want to know!

Hah hah! I was right! =D

Well, curently grinning my face off cause I was right! I was right! Right I tell you, right! Well, Molly was grinning this morning, and I guessed that she was going out with Jack :), and I was right! Right! Well, after thinking that there was going to be some huuuuge news, I'm now bored. Usually I get bored, but this time, after expecting something, I dunno, huge, seeing how it was jsut that, aka something I already knew a looooong time ago, I'm more bored than ever! Can't be bothered to do aaaanything. Nothing at aaaaall.... oh yeah, when are they going out :) gotta know. Aaaaand bored again, jeez I get bored very easily. I think I might as well go and, I dunno, do extra homework, do my Chinese homework, play piano when I don't need to. Ugh! Soooo boooored, nothing to do, and the computer is sooooo boring now, they should come up with new games. Maybe I'll just go back to cross stitching. I can't even be bothered to practice Dark Island. an't be bothered to do aaaanything. Nothing, nowt.
Oh yeah, did I mention that I saw Lewie today? Probably not, seeing how I'm soooooo bored. Saw him twice actually but I'm sooooo bored now I couldn't even really care about that. My hearts already beginning to crack seeing how he hasn't said anything to me for sooo long. He used to talk to me like every single day, and now it's like I don't even exist anymore. It's like I've completely disappeared. And I've seemed to have disappeared from so many people's worlds, well about 3 or so. Let's see, Lewie, Erin and Emily. I'm like sort of feeling nothing at the moment, I think this boredom has gotten rid of my emotions, oh never mind, beginning to feel really sad 'bout not existing. I feel so, alone, no wonder I wrote that poem. Alone, so alone in this world, maybe that should be one of the lines. I'll put it on my blog sometime. Looks like, either I'm going to have to talk to him or just... just... avoid him.... forever..... Like he never existed, it's like I never existed, it's like I just don't exist anymore, and never have. I never existed, every memory of me, erased from the world, forever.

Yesterday... And Today

Well I couldn't be bothered to write my blog yesterday. So.... yesterday. Well, what I really don't get is why, like, hard to explain. Well we had to bring back the sort of survey thing for our subject choices, and everyone in my regi class were so interested to know what I was going to take. I mean, other people brought their's back and no-one gave a damn, and I just take mine out of my bag, and they're all wanting to see it. God. Ummmm.... I got my results for Physics, and French aaaaand German. Physics: 52/58, good good. French, did baaaaad. Listening, 18/27, that isw baaad. Reading, not that bad, 32/35 and Grammar 29/30, quite good, and Writing Grade 1, not sure about Speaking yet. Ok...... German Reading 31/33, Speaking Grade 1, Listening 27/27 haven't done Grammar yet and dunno 'bout Writing. So I think I've done pretty well, part from French, but I'll improve. Now Education out of the way. In the Library, why did Michael say hi to me? He does it soooo often now! And the only conclusion Molly can jump to is that he likes me. What the *beep* . Anyway, in English we're writing a Vampire Handbook, weird, and in History I flicked to a page on the First World War and started writing a very depressing poem about war. Aaaand... I didn't see Lewie that day :(.
Today
Well, I wrote another depressing poem about loneliness, I mean, depressing poems seem to be the only ones I can write now! I was suppose to have a Music Lesson but I won't ahve them at school just yet, not until my Piano Exam is finished. So, didn't get to miss RE. Oh yeah, and this morning, I think the 4th years are having exams, but I saw Robert, this really really tall guy, in the crowd down at Trinity, he was like a head taller than the whole crowd! Anyway, so I looked to the left, and guess what, I saw Lewie, and his friends. One of them pointed at me and I was just thinking, Oh shit, and looked away, but looked back again. Ummm.... yeah, sorry 'bout the swearing. So..... when I was going to my Music Lesson Michael saw me and said hi to me, again! God there is something really weird going on. Anyway, Lunch time the 1st years I work with for the Tin Pan Ali Auditions were telling me to go rehearse with them. Well Corry (if that's how you spell his name) was but Alistair wasn't. I like him, I think he's real nice. No not in that way incase your about to say that Molly. But when I got up there Corry wasn't going to rehearse, so I just left telling Alistair that I'll see him tomorrow at Lunch time. I think I might as well quit, I've got no confidence, I can't do it, especially not with people who won't rehearse and I don't know! Oh my god I'm dead. I mean if we were doing it individually I would probably be able to do it, but not infront of 50 or so people! Unless I'm really confident that we've rehearsed as much as we could and I believed it to be good, aaaaand I was with my friends. But noooooo, they kicked me out. Oh well, time to commit suicide. :( Not fair, when will he tell me? I need to know.

You are such a liar, Liar

MOLLY! You haven't done I thing I asked you to do. And you said you would. Liar. "When the time is right". Now look at what you've made me do, I'll have to do it myself, I'm going to send him an e-mail..... I'll have a lot of explaining to do, like how I got his e-mail. Oh well. And we had a Chemistry Exam this morning, realized I got the Isotopes wrong. Yeah, whoever doesn't take Chemistry, don't worry if you haven't a clue what I'm on about. And after that saw *sigh* him..... then maths, overall, I didn't do that bad. 80% overall, I've had better but still. I always get full marks on the KU =] Knowlage and Understanding. Ummm.... nothing else interesting, apart that for the French Speaking we had to do it infront of the class (sort of) and I forgot it as soon as I got up, and Mr MacKinnon had to remind me of the start. Though apparently some people thought I did good. Michael, he is one weird guy, very weird, especially when he stared at me during French. I just had this weird feeling like someone was looking at me, you know, a 6th sense, I turn around, and there he is looking at me. Freeky in soooo many ways.

What a Exam-filled day

Well, today was non-uniform day and the donations go towards helping the people you know, Haiti Earthquake. See! It does ring a bell! Anyway, so, ummm..... well =] saw Lewi and so obviously I looked the other way and Erin was just like, "Guess who I see?" well, argh! Ummm..... saw him again after History but onto that later. See, we had that CAT (Cognitive Ability Testing) Test thing and lasted all morning, all morning! In Trinity! God! Well then it was lunch and then History. In History we were just watching 'Hitler: Rise of Evil' or whatever, but I just sat there trying to ignore it 'cause I was revising for the Physics Exam we had just after that. Well, so walking down to Trinity and saw Lewi.... *sigh* I see him at that time every Thursday.... No, well that's beside the point! Molly was just talking and suddenly she saw a pen "Ooohh! A pen!" lol it was soooo funny. And in the Physics Exam I got sooooo bored so I started swinging my ruler infront of me and staring at it. Barbara was looking at me as if I was mad. Oh well, I sort of am.
Oh yeah, and at lunch time, Ray was really annoying me and Molly, well sort of anyway, so I grabbed onto him and wouldn't let him run up to the lunch hall =]. It was fun, and I tried to slap him, but missed. OK..... sort of bored now....

ARGH!

NO! TESTS TESTS AND MORE TESTS! AND MORE EXAMS TOMORROW! NOOOOOOOO!!!!!!! Anyway, now that's I've got that out of the way, today. Ummmm...... eeked a lot when I saw Lewis in the Library, and guess what. As the bell rang Molly was getting a book out of the Library his friend got my attention just to point out Lewis to me, great, and I was trying to avoid looking around, but you know, when someone calls your name you sort of look around. And that guy wolf-whistled again, great. Anyway, before that, me and Molly were in the Library and we were sitting on the same chair, you know, half half, and when Lewis came in, she had to nudge me off, why? And I fell into the 4th year on the other chair who goes to Chess, he thought it was funny too. Well I was laughing but at least I managed to say sorry. Anyway, then Lewi broke the keyboard on the Computor thingy thing, well some people will know what I'm talking about, it was funny. See, I was just talking with Molly and then suddenly you hear this crash and look up to find out he broke it lol. Ah! Remember something else, I found out his birthday =] (no don't ask how, it's not, well, I just saw the sheet! The.... on.... wall...... thing..... German!) And that's about it, unless you count me passing the German Speaking with a Grade 1. Oh yeah, and when I got my Listening back Mr Summerville said "Jenny, not bad" and I thought Oh my God, how badly did I do? And I looked at the sheet, 27 out of 27. Yes, thanks Mr Summerville, say not bad, get me to worry and find out it was real good. =]. Lol. Well then Molly had to fix her time for her speakings and she forgot she arranged it to be tomorrow, and went back in and said that she couldn't do it this lunch time. Lol. Emmmm..... went to Tin Pan Ali, good, found out something sick but apparently true from Molly, thought I did hear it from someone else as well. Not gonna say it cause it is really really sick. Well had the Maths test and couldn't finish the non-calc one in time, and broke down into tears. I got sooo stuck! That's going to affect my grade so badly. I'll live, hopefully. BYE

Molly! Your promised!

Well you did, and all you ever say is "When the time is right" why not now? Why won't you just do it? Well no one else will get what I'm on about but that doesn't really matter. Oh yeah, another thing, Molly, how dare you call me Jichael, how dare you! That's it. Anyway, *sigh*. So many opportunities, why didn't you do it? I mean after break, you didn't, that was such a good time! Oh and I saw him beore Biology, and *sigh* brushed past him at the gate =]. Anyways, finished reading The Tomg of Sarah in English and started Interview with a Vampire =[. I got bored so started writing a poem, called Sadness. God. And there's going to be one called Regret. So..... umm..... subject choices, not good at making desicions. Did rubbish in the Close Reading test, same mark as last time, 17 out of 25. That sucks. And lots more tests tomorrow. Great.

.........

Well, weirdos, that's all I'm gonna say. Well where do I start. In the Library as I was comming out, the guy that said, you know, when I walked past Lewis, he said "Here she comes" again as I walked past, God! And Michael was going to sit beside me in the Library but that doesn't really matter. But in French I was getting Paranoid, I kept getting the feeling someone was looking at me, and guess what, someone was: Michael. Weird. Doesn't really matter. Oh yeah, and why does Harvey keep saying hi to me? Yeah, when I don't really know someone and I don't really like them that much I call them by their last names, like Andrew Kelly, I call him Kelly =]. Well I'm having weird times, so many people that I don't even talk to are saying hi to me, well not that many, well sort of. Long story, and I can't be bothered to tell it. Anyway, in Tin Pan Ali, learned the words to the song and the dialoge for the Audition, which is in a fortnight. Good, I'm going with Megan, Emily and Pallavi. I'm Small Fry, lol, they have very weird names, you know, one of the Thieves? Ring a bell? Anyone? Hello? Ummmm..... Why do I hear a grasshopper? This wasn't even suppose to be funny? Oh, grasshopper stopped as well. Ummmm..... Never mind then. Ummmmm...... Bye then.

I can't believe you did that! (Molly)

Well, why did you do that? What was the point? You asked Isabelle about Lewis Robb (finally, I'm writing Lewis) and the point was? And no he does not say 'hi' to you liar. What was the point? And I already knew he took German anyway, and French, and Art, and Chemistry, and Biology, and Home Ec. Damn, how did I know all of this? So, nothing else interesting. I was doodling in English again, I mean, like booooring! Missed the bus, had to wait one hour, and the bus driver is mad. Mental, weird, completely, he even says it himself. God, I know a lot of weird people. Oh yeah, I almost had a nervous breakdown in German. Two reasons, not gonna mention one and 'cause we had a reading test and I didn't know so many things but we got a dictionary but I'm rubbish at using dictionaries! =( :'(. Anyway, nothing to say really, BYE!
Oh yeah, just remembered, today, i found out that a certain SOMEBODY has put the link to mine and Molly's blog on her bebo page and commented them as being funny. Does my blog sound funny to you? Basically she's just saying that what we think is funny. Yes, me being in love with a guy who's like 2 years older that me is funny. People who have been so deeply in love with somebody and had been made fun of, you know what I'm talking about don't you? Well Mila is, so, argh! I hate her! Can't believe we used to be friends. Well how does this sound, now that everyone I know knows about this, then I'm guessing it wouldn't hurt to finally let it out and get pay back. Mila likes a guy from Harris Academy called Adam who's in 5th year and smokes. There, done. Feeling better letting my anger all out.
Oh yeah, funny story. See, this guy called Rory in my French class, last year in class he was called Bambi (don't ask why lol =] it's funny) and today when we were in the ITC area doing french we were the only 3 in the other room (me Rebecca and Rory) and I was asking Rebecca (just to make sure) if the Perfect Tense just ment the Past Tense. She did get it and after some time Rory told me that it was and I said "Thank you Bambi" then realized I called him Bambi, he didn't mind. Lol, I was dared to call him that like some months ago, there Mila, happy, I've done it, and it was fun. Well then I had to help him a lot as well, you know, where -ir verbs take off the ir and add i, -re verbs take off the re and add u. That sort of thing, I got 100% on everything! Happy =D! Well done now, BYE!
Just remembered (I seem to jsut remember quite a lot of things =]) weird thing. Before music, why is it that so many boys wanted to give a a high five? Why? See we were practicing the Leng Medal thing, so singing, so we had to go into different class rooms. And I was comming out of my class room and the boys were going into that one and as they were lining up outside Robert wanted to give me a high five and some other boys who I never even talk to! I mean what the hell was that about? I don't even talk to Robert an more, I talked to him last year in German 'cause I sat right next to him (we used to have pen fights during class, it was so fun) but I don't talk to him this year, and suddenly, well, it's just weird. Very weird. Btw this is not my brother I'm talking about.
Btw, been looking through Lewis' photos, God they are hilarious. He is completely out of his head but still, sooooo funny. He's weird, but there are a lot of weird people in the world, me, Molly, my bus driver, etc. But I don't think anyone would be as weird and odd as him.... nope. But so funny. =D I was laughing my head off, literally, just kidding =]. (maybe =])

Eeek! Not again

OK, today, wrote down revision notes in Chemistry and at break was in the Library and guess who was there? I don't even need to say it. Well saw him again at lunch and now skipping to during lunch. Oh btw I was doodling in English again while we were reading Dracula. Lots of flowers, you should see my doodle page. I hate all the others but I quite like my black rose.... hhhmmmm.... that's just given me an idea. Anyway, at lunch time I've managed to get out of chess 'cause of all the revision I need to do for the tests, but I got sooooooo bored. I went round the building a couple of times, climed up to the top of the Music Departement and went round the school again. On the bright side I saw Louis =]. I really should start writing it Lewie or Lewi or just Lewis. But that's gonig to take a lot of getting used to. So..... then to History, that was slightly weird and I'm not going to say why. Oh what the heck I will, just to make fun of him..... actually no, I can't bring myself to do it. Oh well, guess you'll never know. Anyway, I was going down to PE and I saw Louis and to of his friends, and they'd just had Home Ec. and I was trying not to look that way, when one of his friends called out my name and said Louis and pointed to him. God, feels like the time when Guy kept doing that. Well, naturally I hid my face and blah blah blah. But it was funny in PE, you won't get this but teacher asked a question, and Molly said 'child-birth' "Well you wouldn't have had children yet" was the teachers reply "At least I don't think so" God it was hilarious =]. I don't think I can even spell that word. Well then on the bus I had to lend Callum 70p 'cause he didn't have change for the bus, idiot. He could have got a bus that gave change but nooooo he had to forget one of his bags. Well now he owes me, again. =]There was a pile of bags on the bus and I was sitting right beside it. I was scared that they would fall on me, and guess what, one almost did. How typical. Well I survived and I'm now here. Very boring day. Btw did I tell you how I was cheeky to a teacher yesterday? Probs not. Well I was to Mr Preston, when he said I don't get payed to help people cause Iw as helping Callum and I just said Well I'm helping anyway. I got away with it, second time. First time was when I told Dr Fotheringham last year that i would put my book away in a second when I really shouldn't have said that. Well I got away with it didn't I?

Strangest Day Ever

Well, want to hear about today? Well, let's see. We were late for Geography because Mr Stuart was talking to us about subject choice but in Geography we were sort of talking about the same thing. After Geography I was talking to Chloe and turned around and Molly was infront of me, right infront of me and her hands were around my neck. I screamed before I realized what had happened and I didn't realize I screamed until I stopped, God that was the loudest scream ever, I've never really screamed. Molly's all happy that she made me scream. So.... forwarding to break, I was in the Library all panicking about how I wouldn't be able to finish all my homework (of course I have now otherwise I wouldn't be typing =]) and Louis was there, great. He left at 20 past and when we left the Library he and his friends were outside. I saw him, didn't really realize it was him but realized it in like half a second and looked back. Yes, and then forwarding to lunch-time. I was suppose to go to Tin Pan Ali rehearsals but somehow managed to forget, after reminding myself every 5 minutes just before. How stupid. Well saw Louis a couple of times and then went up to Tin Pan Ali but I thought i was in the wrong place 'cause I could hear trumpets. So went back down to look for Molly and such and saw Louis again. He was with one of his friends and guess what? The worst possible thing, well not really but quite bad if you ask me. As I walked past his friend said "Look who's comming, the lovely lady," Oh God at that time I felt like hiding my face behind my hair but instead I just walked past, acting as though I never heard that. God, it's just the way he said it. I'm mean seriously, did he really have to stretch the 'a' in lady and really make the lovely stand out. Jeez. Well after that it was all blah blah blah and-I got to sit beside Molly in Maths! Yes, random. So that was like it but seriously, that guy, as I would know from other times, was the one who always wolf-whistled when I walked past Louis before, and that was before the note! Oh my God. And btw Louis' name is actually Lewis but his nick-name is Louis but spelt differently. It was either Lewie or Lewi, either way. I knew that ages ago but it's just because Molly mentioned in yesterday. I think I still preffer writing Louis, or maybe I will change it to Lewis. Lewie, Lewi. God this is confuzing.

Don't remind me, trying to forget my feelings

Well today I saw Louis in the Library at break time, he smiled at me so obviously, I looked away. Forgetting that part, Molly came in half day, at lunch time 'cause she only got home at 3am that day from her skiing trip in France =]. Good, 'cause if she didn't get in she would have got a 50 page long e-mail with that poem repeated so many times.
"We're in this together"
That's what you said,
But then you left me
to suffer
alone.
Well, didn't need to do that and I'm talking to her on MSN right now. Well Molly copied out her 'I Can't Believe You Did That' list again and she said she'd ask Louis how he felt about me 'cause she had no dignity left =] after handing him the note. I mean he hasn't replied, I did ask him int the note, oh well. Well Molly said she'd do it if I'd walk past him, head held high and not giggling. She wants to studdy his body language (what's the (not gonnaa swear here) hell?). Oh well, hope it happens tomorrow, the sooner the better. I always think. Then again I have been telling myself that for the past 1 and a third year or so to try to get myself to ask Louis out, never happened. Well till you know. So, feeling better, not being all upset and things like that. Oh, funny thing, I was doing my homework and wondering why Molly hadn't come on yet and realized that I wasn't even logged onto MSN. Lol, I'm such an idiot. And I also had this very weird dream. Well I got really upset cause Louis didn't like me or something like that, so I jumbed off the top of a building then the ambulance came. Surprisingly I was compltely fine and was struggling trying not to get taken to hospital and shouting "Let go! I need to run infront of a car!" Weird, looks like I was desperate to kill myself. I feel like I'm turning into Molly, god. Well anyway, feeling better, hopefully I will find out soon. Bye

Love at First Sight

Ok, I'm forcing myself to right this right now because I really don't feel like it but at the same time I want to do it. Well, do you believe in love at first sight? I'm not sure anymore, I'm all confused. I liked Louis the first time I saw him, and if it was love at first sight, I just want to know, when it's 'Love at First Sight" should it be that it's for both people? I dunno what to do! The note was given to Louis, he knows, he's nice enough not to tell anyone else (thank god) and now I'm confused. I don't know what I want anymore! I'm scared to face Louis because I'm frightened that he'll make fun of me, but at the same time I can't avoid him, I can't stay away from him. I have to be with him, I have to talk to him and see him. Otherwise I feel so cold and alone. So I don't know what to do! Do I stay away from him and make myself miserable or do I just talk to him like before and take the risk of being hurt? I really really don't know! I've managed to avoid him for all of today, sort of, and I'm feeling alone and sad, depressed, because I haven't seen him. And now that he knows I just want him more, I can't help it, now he knows I have to know how he feels about me, I have to see him! But I can't. I'm scared. What if he doesn't? What would I do? I don't know. I'm so hurt and confused. What would you do when you like someone so much that you just can't stand it anymore? What? Please, someone. Help me. Tell me what I should do. What? Just what? Avoid him and hurt myself, or face him and risk being hurt by him? I really really really don't know! I need someone to help me. Tell me what to do before I break down into tears at school. Please, someone. Anyone out there. Help me.

Is it better or is it worse?

(Is it better, is it worse? Are we sitting in reverse, it's just like we're going back-wards. Sorry, as soon as I put that title that's what went through my head)
Ok, I've said that I'm going to tell you how it goes at school today. Well, on the bright side of today, Louis hasn't told anyone in my year, so no-one bothered me which is good. The only people who know are the people I've told and the 4th years that were with Louis when Molly gave him the note (I said through gritted teeth =]) and the thing was, all day I was trying to aovid Louis and his friends. In the morning I saw one of his friends and tried to hide, behind Chloe which was proved a bit hard seeing how Chloe's smaller than me, so we just ran into the main building. I thought I would be able to avoid Louis by going through the main building rather than around, well god was I wrong. As I got into the back playground, Louis was there, but fortunatly he didn't see me, and this time I tried to hide behind Erin =]. Louis had got his hair cut and that haircut really doesn't suit him, looked quite funny =]. Well at lunchtime I was didn't know what to think, would it be better if he knew or better if he didn't? Was it better that I tried to avoid him or face up to him and pretend that nothing ever happened? See, all confuzed. I'm sure you'll remember me saying that I was going to avoid the Library at all times, but I had to go to send my story to Mrs Keogh, well I didn't have to but I wanted to. I was sitting at the computer and one of Louis' friend cam up to me and said "Louis' over there" well I didn't reply but when I went to look for Kirsty and she was reading a book. One of Louis' other friends came, the one I was trying to hide from behind Chloe this morning) and said "Do you like Louis Robb?" (well I think that's what he said, it might have been Lewis Robb, I'm not really sure if his name is Louis or Lewis, but I had the thought it was Louis 'cause that's what Guy said and he did point out Louis a couple of times just to make sure, annoying) well all I said was what so he repeated the question "Do you like Louis Robb" (well that's what I think he said so don't look at me, if it's Lewis then god I'm going to feel so idiotic). As you can probably imagine, I didn't say anything so "Yes then" great, even when I don't say anything it's bad for me. I have just officially ruined my life. On the brighter side no-one but the 4th years that were present when Molly gave Louis that note and the people I've told know so that's a good thing. The annoying thing was that that scene that happened in the Library keeps repeating in my head, again and again and again and again, the never ending clip. AHHHHHHH!!!!! Ok, well in Games we were doing fitness so my brain and I were too exhausted to do anything, so I forgot about it, and on the bus, it was a bit hard to concentrate on anything with the boys talking about whatever. Archie (being so small) tried to sneek past everyone to avoid paying for the bus ticket, but that didn't work lol. Callum was short on one pence and then he didn't notice me for like the 1st 5 minutes on the bus. Then suddenly he was like, "Oh look, there's Jenny. Hi Jenny!" and started waving at me. "Hi.... you didn't notice me for this whole time?" "Well you could have been sitting over there". It was quite funny. Well nothing else interesting apart from the part that I'm typing right now. So, G2G, bye!

Start of Term Tomorrow

School starts tomorrow, and guess what? I've been thinking up of all the ways to avoid Louis and his friends, trying to stay away from the places he'd most likely be at at the certain time. Well I've come up with a list of places to avoid and how to do it, though some of them are just not doable. Ok, morning I've got assembly so that's good, but then I'd be with Chaz and them, who know Louis :(, so have to face up to that. Break, either don't go to the locker room or dash there as quick as possible 'cause he's got English right before break. When going back to Chemistry after break go through the main building and not around, though that might not be needed. After History when going to Games either get down to the buses real quick or take a long time, no, that won't work. Just have to get to the buses as quick as possible. Note, avoid Library at all times, or just go to the computor section, yes I'll need to do that. About it but dunno how I'm going to avoid Guy in English and some other people, who know other people who know other people, god. It's like everyone knows everyone at this school, I mean I didn't know like half the people in our year and yet they knew me, weird. So, wish me luck people, god I can't believe it's tomorrow. Ok Jenny, take a big breath, and out. Think of something calm and you'll just have to take it as it comes. Breathe Jenny, big breath and stop typing. Ok, done, tell you how it goes tomorrow if I survive =]. Cya

Are dreams suppose to tell you something? Like the future?

I must really be getting up-tight about that note I gave Louis (well Molly gave it to him for me =]) because last night I dreamt about it, and it started off quite strangly. I was walking along this place, and I knew it was in Switzerland 'cause I used to live there. I was going to turn around the corner and expected to see exactly what should be there in real life, but instead I ended up ar my school. I wasn't sure weither school had started yet, I assumed that it was still the holidays but everyone was there, in their school uniforms, and I realized I was in mine too. I looked back and Bell street was behind me, and not the place in Switzerland, everything was normal. Well it turned out school had started apparently and I walked down and saw this group of 4th years, which were Louis and his friends. Well they saw me and I tried to hide my face, doesn't really work that well when you're the only person at the school with long black hair, and they recognised me. I tried to just walk past and ignore them, but then Louis called out my name and I looked around. "Look familiar?" he said as he threw a crunched up piece of paper to me. I caught it and opened it, it was the note I gave him, or so I thought. I realized that the words on the piece of paper was written in green, but the not I gave him was written in purple. So I opened it again and it said 'Yes'. I looked up at him and then turned round and started walking down towards the gates. He came and walked down with me and when we reached the gates he said that he did really like me but his parents won't let him go out with anyone (God I thought that was only my parents) he looked very upset. And then it went all strange and Molly was there, and I said "I thought you're suppose to be in France" "Ah well it got posponed to next month" weird and apparently in regi I was chewing gum, I hate chewing gum, why would I be doing that? Well then we were at the pillars and the some boys (mostly 4th years, including Louis) had to help with something. Me Kirsty and Chloe were just sitting there and as Louis walked past he ruffed up my hair and 2 of his friends did the same. I don't really like people doing that and then they came out again with the things they were suppose to be carriying, and they had no idea what they were suppose to do with it, quite funny. And then suddenly Molly was there again, and I asked the same thing and she replied with the same answer. It's cause I seemed to realize the 1st time was a dream and it hadn't actually happened but then this time it was a dream but I didn't think it was. It was really confuzing. Well that's basically what happened, imagine that really happened on the 1st day of school, omg that would just be, well impossible, and I'd probably faint or something (I've never ever fainted before, wonder what it feels like) oh well let's just hope that he is really as he is suppose to be. Being born on the year of the Dog, if he really was as it says people born on the year of the dog should be like then that'll be wonderful =], sort of.

Chinese Zodiac: All 12 animals

Rats are both charming and aggressive. They appear calm and well balanced on the surface,but underneath, they are restless and a little nervous. Rats are compatible,hard working, and they know how to hang on to a penny. They are never without admirers. They are very appealing.They have a bright and happy personality,and this keeps them busy socially.They love parties and other large gatherings. They like belonging to exclusive clubs and will often have a close circle of fellow conspirators.They like involvement and are very outgoing. Rats cherish friends and loved ones. For this reason,they often get entangled with others'problems and lives.

Rats love money and are quite shrewd where a buck is concerned. It is a hard task to separate Rats from their money. However, Rats can be very generous when their loved ones are concerned. Relatives are always welcome. Rats are definitely clannish and clever. With all these people around, Rats always find tasks for them to earn their keep. People will be put to work quickly in the Rat's house. Rats know how to keep a secret, if it's their own,but they are adept at finding out what others try to keep to themselves, and Rats wouldn't be above using the information if it were to their benefit.

One can always tell when Rats are upset. They become edgy,very nervous, and quite nagging. Rats are always taken by a bargain. They often buy things they don't need and tend to save everything. Souvenirs and sentimental odds and ends are found tucked away everywhere.

Since they make it a point to know everything about everybody,Rats are excellent writers. They have a good memory and are extremely inquisitive. Rats can be successful in almost everything they try to do. They easily adapt themselves to the situation at hand. They are at their best during any crisis and are great problem solvers. Rats are very level headed and are also very alert. Their intuition is strong and are always on the lookout for opportunities to better themselves. Rats seldom get into jams they can't escape since they cover themselves well in advance.They have a built in alarm system.

One of the Rat's biggest fault is that they try to do too much at once. They often scatter their energies and get nothing accomplished. Once they learn to finish what they have started,there is no stopping them from being successful. The Rat must also watch those fast deals and those great bargains. In these areas their judgment may fail them. They must not become too greedy,or they will suffer a financial blow or two.

Rats have great respect for their parents and dote on their own children. They love their home. Family life is very important to them. Rats born during the evening are tempted to a more hectic life than those born during the day.

Rats learn early, quickly, and are avid readers. They know how to express themselves well-both written and orally. Given the slightest chance, Rats can make a success of their lives.

Oxes may appear docile, but watch out! They also have quite a temper. They are extremely determined and work tirelessly to get what they want. Step by step and piece by piece, they move steadily toward their goals. People born under the sign of the Ox are dependable and stick to a routine until the job is done. They are fair-minded and good listeners, but they can also be extremely stubborn.

Because of their trustworthy character, Oxes will often hold positions of authority and responsibility. They always get ahead in the world. They must be careful not to become slaves to their jobs or profession. Oxes can be forceful leaders and eloquent speakers when the occasion arises. In troubled times they will have great presence of mind and will never be intimidated. They are very proud souls. Oxes are systematic and respect traditions. They mistrust things they don't understand,and they hate loose ends.They can also be vulnerable in romance. They are so straightforward that they don't relate to the love games others play. Since it takes a long time to develop intimate relationships, Oxes like long courtships. Once they have made up their minds, they are loyal and giving-almost to a fault.

Ox people are neat and punctual, honest and hard working. Oxes make ideal mates since they always do more than their share. They have a long memory and remember the little details others miss. Once Oxes are angry with you, they will carry their grievance a long way. When they are unhappy or upset, they will bury themselves in their work until they feel better. Oxes always pay their debts. If they owe you anything, they will never forgive themselves until the debt is paid. They always remember a favor, and though they don't use flowery words,they will show their appreciation in other ways. Their actions speak louder than words.

When Oxes lose their temper, they really lose it! There will be no reasoning with them, so get out of their way until they cool off. Always appeal to the head rather than to the heart of the Oxes. They quickly understand the pros and cons to the situation. Oxes seldom get sick and are not tolerant of weaker people. They should learn how to relax more.

Oxes hate to ask for help. If it takes them twice as long to accomplish something, they still prefer working alone. They want things to last and build them with care. Oxes love their home and family and provide well for them. They do well at long term investments with stability and firm foundations. They are definitely not gamblers. Oxes earn their success by their own merits and don't expect any free rides.

Tigers are rebels. They are both colorful and unpredictable. Their energy and love of life are stimulating.They love being the center of attention and never go unnoticed. Tigers are impatient and always look for action.They speak their minds when upset and have suspicious natures.

But in spite of their quick tempers, they are sincere, generous and very affectionate. They also possess a great sense of humor. Tigers like people, involvement,and dedication to humanitarian causes. They seek out adventures, and at certain points in their lives, they will be very rebellious. They must act out some of their ideals and lash out at the wrongs of society. Tigers are so daring that they acquire many admirers. Those who disapprove of what Tigers do still will secretly admire Tigers for their actions.

When Tigers are injured they need all-out sympathy. Logic does not appeal to them. They want to be comforted. They will listen sincerely to the advice you give, and then do exactly as they please. Since they have a lot of spunk, no matter how down and out they get,they never give up. They can always start over again.

People born during the year of the Tiger have super egos. Tread lightly and don't hurt their feelings. They may never forgive you! Tigers are romantic, passionate, and playful. They are also extremely jealous and possessive. If they do not learn to control their emotions, they could cause themselves much trouble.The lives of Tigers are full of emotional situations, but they love it that way. They love life and want to live it to the fullest.

Optimistic, Tigers always bounce back for new and fresh challenges. Tigers are very generous with rewards when you have pleased them. Being delightful hosts, Tigers go all-out to see that you have a good time. They are intense individuals, especially when upset and angry, but Tigers are famous for their ability in influencing others and swaying crowds.

Hares fall under a most fortunate sign! Their sign is the emblem of long life and they possess the powers of the moon. Hares are very sensitive to beauty. They are gracious and soft spoken. Hares are the diplomats and the peace-makers. They enjoy a tranquil life and love a quiet evening at home. Hares are reserved and very artistic. They are thorough and good scholars. When Hares are moody, which is often, they will appear totally indifferent to the world.

Hares are lucky in money matters and great at finding a bargain. They may look easy-going, but they are actually quite cunning! Being a strong-willed person, they go quietly but determinedly towards their goals. They don't like making waves and find other means to get their way.

Hares are well-mannered and seldom use harsh words or foul language. Instead they cater to your every whim until they get their way. Before you know it, you have been won over! Although Hares appear slow at times, they are actually practicing caution. They read all the fine print before signing their names. Their uncanny abilities to correctly assess people and situations leave them quite conceited. Hares are considerate, understanding, warm, friendly, and easy to be with. They know how to relax.

When everyone is rushing around, Hares remind you that there is still tomorrow. Their motto is "live and let live". Hares would never embarrass you in public and they know how to save face. If Hares can spare your feelings, they will. For this they are well liked.

Hares make few enemies and rarely get into serious trouble. No one is more understanding. Hares give you all the sympathy you need. Just don't expect them to go out and do battle for you.If the going gets too rough, Hares may make a quick exit. They can't stand suffering and misery. Hares are experts at passing the buck and may hedge over difficult issues. When they feel too threatened they are unpredictable. If you push them too far they will simply get rid of you! Hares were not born to be fighters. They have their own ways that are very effective. Having good sense they know how to take care of themselves. They protect their own environment from strife at all costs.

Hares are good entertainers and hosts. They have good words to say about everyone. Although they often know more than they will say,they are discreet in their choice of friends. No matter what happens to Hares, they land on their feet and easily leap obstacles in their path. Hares believe in themselves and are at peace within. They will find success and contentment.

Dragon people are balls of fire! They are full of vitality and love of life. Always on the run, they drag their faithful band of admirers behind them. Dragons are egotistical, eccentric, demanding, and giving.

They are proud, direct, and loaded with high ideals which they always try to live up to. Having a zeal for life, they want to live it on a grand scale. They have the potential for accomplishing many great things as long as they don't get too far ahead of themselves. When dragons do something, good or bad, you can be certain their deeds do not go unnoticed! Dragons are always making the news.

It is next to impossible to win an argument with Dragon people.They intimidate anyone who challenges them. Once you arouse their anger, they keep after you for a very long time. Dragons are extremely loyal to friends and family. When really needed they always come to the rescue. They are the first ones to say "I told you so". In spite of being overly emotional, a Dragon is not sentimental or even romantic. They will just take it for granted that everyone loves them. Although they are stubborn and irrational, they are not petty or begrudging with their favors. It is hard for them to hide their feelings. They don't even try.

Not being secretive themselves, they can't be expected to keep a confidence for long; but Dragons speak from the heart and are always sincere. Their manners may seem brusque and too direct, but they merely want to get things moving. Being creatures of action, they motivate others, too. They often get into rushes and fail to see the flaws in a situation.Instead of diving in, Dragons need to learn to check things out better. Dragons need purpose in their lives, causes to fight for, and goals to reach. An uninvolved Dragon is a sad sight indeed.

Dragons consider themselves very strong. They will often bite off more than they can chew. When this happens, they are too proud to ask for help and exhaust themselves. Dragons can do many things well. They may be artists, politicians, doctors, or ministers. When Dragons choose the right profession, they will be successful and devoted. They just can't help winning!

In romance, Dragons are seldom the losers and are usually the ones breaking hearts. Dragons don't marry too young, and many are content and happier living alone. Dragons will always have more than their share of friends and admirers to keep them company. Dragons are really softies and fall apart if they lose their supporters. They dazzle as long as there is someone who believes in them.

Snakes are romantic and charming. They are deep thinkers and always mysterious. Snakes are graceful and soft spoken. They love a good book and appreciate all of the arts. They lean towards all of the finer things in life. Snakes trust themselves above all others and are seldom wrong; but behind a sophisticated front,Snakes are very superstitious!

Snakes are good with money and don't have to worry about finances. Somehow, when money is needed, it appears. In spite of their good luck with money, Snakes should never gamble. They could suffer big losses if they did, but Snakes learn fast. Once they have made a mistake,they never repeat it. They also never forgive you if you break a promise. By nature they are skeptical beings but keep their suspicions to themselves. They are very private and not concerned with the business of others. Idle gossip is not for them.

Snakes can be possessive in their relationships with others.They are passionate but jealous lovers. You can never tell how far Snakes will go to achieve their aims. They are relentless and their computer-like brains never stop plotting.When you anger them, you feel their icy hostility instead of hearing any sharp words. They will bide their time for revenge, so watch out! Snakes are elegant dressers, well-mannered, and always discrete. They always appear quiet and docile, but watch out, they never betray their true feelings. Their moves are planned out well in advance and they will hold their position to the bitter end. They can be evasive, and just when you think you have them, they slip away.

Snakes make good politicians since they can negotiate just about anything. Snakes also have a great sense of humor, and even in a crisis situation, they can lighten the atmosphere. They never lose their spark even when weighed down by trouble themselves. Being pillars of strength,they always maintain their presence of mind during confusion or crisis.

Snakes have beautiful skin. They possess a cool and classic air about them. They love expensive things,too. Snakes save for the real thing rather than buy an imitation. Snakes admire power and surround themselves with successful people. Their many talents and natural abilities make them sought-after as leaders. People admire and support Snakes even if they don't understand them.

Whatever happens, Snakes always strike out for themselves. They know how to use people and situations to their advantage. They are destined for fame and fortune.

Horses are very appealing people. They are warm and friendly and dearly love social atherings with plenty of people. They are perceptive and enjoy talking. They have a high spirited nature and are changeable. This makes them hot-tempered, rash, and headstrong. They are always falling in and out of love. Quick to warm to someone, they are just as quick to lose interest. Here today and gone tomorrow-these are the Horses. Then when you decide not to see them again, here they come ready to pick up where they left off!

Horses are adventurers at heart, but they do have sharp minds and good abilities for managing money. They are self-reliant and energetic. They love exercise, both mental and physical. Their movements are rapid, yet graceful; their speech is quick, yet elegant. Horses want things their way and they will become aggressive when all else fails. They value their freedom above all else. They are not possessive or jealous of others. Being moody creatures, Horses depend on the feel of things. They possess the ability to improvise while events are in motion and can handle several things at once. Horses find it difficult to unwind. They keep strange hours and suffer from insomnia. When they stop, it is usually from exhaustion. It is hard for them to follow a schedule for they have no respect for routine.They need to keep busy but do best when given a free hand.

Horses are full of new ideas to solve tricky problems. When they have an idea, they want to get right to it. They work around the clock until they finish. Horses want you to come to the point quickly since they don't have time to spare. They will not care if you are blunt, just don't waste their time.

Horses must be allowed to show their emotions. They are hot-blooded, hot-tempered, and impatient,and they will gladly demonstrate. In love, Horses are quite vulnerable. They give up everything for the object of their affections. This causes them trouble since they are such impulsive creatures! They must learn to use caution. If one has a Horse in their house, you can bet the Horse receives most of the attention. Horses like being the hub and have everything revolving about them. In return, they work hard and share with everyone.

Horses don't mind starting over. They maintain their determination and enjoy new successes. They belong in careers where they are surrounded by people. They sway crowds and love being flattered. The willful Horses get into countless predicaments but they bail themselves out. They enjoy fighting their own battles. Colorful and lively, they make many friends. If they could be in several places at once,they would be delighted! Their spirit is restless and searching. Creativity is part of their being.They are talented writers and performers.

Sheep are the good samaritans of the Chinese zodiac. They are gentle mannered and on the shy side. Being very sincere they are easily taken by a sob story. Sheep people are compassionate,understanding of others' faults, and quick to forgive.

Sheep like to set their own hours and will not tolerate too much discipline. They are also very offended if they are criticized. They cannot work well under pressure and must be allowed to do things at their own speed. Sheep need somebody to discipline them, though, in order to utilize their talents. They usually find someone to look after and care for them.

Good fortune smiles upon the sheep. They benefit from wills and inheritances. Even in the roughest of times, the Sheep always acquire the basic needs. Sheep get their own way without force or violence. They have that passive endurance that drives you mad. Eventually they wear you down with their pleas.You just can't break them!

Sheep never come right out and discuss what's bothering them. You pry it out of them bit by bit. When all else fails, yell at them, and bang things around. They should be impressed and might unfold all their secret woes; then, you can clear the air. The Sheep are family people. They never forget anyone's birthday, and you had better not forget theirs! Sheep worry, too. They want others to cheer them up and tell them everything will be okay.

Sheep overspend and should avoid dealing with money. They find it hard to be practical and would love a life of luxury and ease. Ugly things will depress Sheep. They hate to displease anyone especially their loved ones. They will edge around an issue rather than take a firm stand. Difficulties are a delicate issue with Sheep. They are too sensitive and often overreact. Reassure them often.

Romance is a part of the Sheep's being. Moonlight and roses, soft music and candlelight will get them every time. They tend to view the world through rose-colored glasses. Sheep do not usually have to work hard. Good things just happen naturally. They need bright, airy surroundings and excel in creative fields. Appreciation of their talents make Sheep glow, and with encouragement, they can go far in life.

No task is too great for the clever Monkeys. They master most anything. They have extremely charming manners that draw others. Monkeys solve difficult problems with ease.They are quick-witted,innovative, and they have total and intense belief in themselves. No one delights in their own accomplishments like the Monkeys. Enjoying themselves immensely, they try anything at least once! Monkeys are intellectual and their memory is phenomenal. They recall the smallest details of everything they have seen,read, and heard. They must depend on that memory since they have an otherwise untidy mind. Monkeys are wizards with money. They are original, shrewd, and when they need to, they can fool anyone.There are a hundred and one fantastic schemes they want to try, and you can bet they make some of them work. Even when they take you in, it is hard to be angry with them, or begrudge them anything. They don't care what opinions others have of them. They know they are lucky, and they also know they have the ability to change things when convenience calls. Monkeys are virtually unsinkable! When the odds are stacked against them, Monkeys know when to quit. Their timing is superb, and they will wait to try another time. If you try to trick Monkeys, they will probably catch you. They never make a move without a plan. They are great strategists. They can spot an opportunity in any form. They never miss a trick!

Monkeys are hard workers once they have a piece of the action. The bigger the piece, the better they do. Monkeys like to travel, and they want to do it first class.They need a certain amount of excitement in their lives.

Since Monkeys get what they want without too much trouble, they may not care about all their conquests. They lose interest quickly and must learn to finish what they start and take care of what they have. People always flock around Monkeys,but Monkeys don't trust very much. They know a select group of friends that they choose carefully. Money is a must for Monkeys, and they usually have it, or will be in the process of getting it.They know nothing is permanent. They improve and try to do better, and often amaze even themselves. Monkeys like facts and they hateto waste time. Always remember, Monkeys don't care if you approve of them or not, and if not careful, you will be eating right out of their hands! They are the ultimate diplomats and slip in and out of difficulties with ease.

Monkeys must be careful in romance, although clear-sighted, they are very critical and lose interest in anyone they can't consider their peer.They are vain and egotistical,but even that is to their advantage.

Monkeys are always out in front!

Roosters are the most eccentric of the Chinese zodiac. They are full of dreams and romantic ideas. They are colorful and attractive, radiant and dashing, and they are quite proud of themselves. Roosters are organized, precise,and their sharp eyes seek out fine details in everything. They are perfectionists and leave no room for human error. To Roosters, a difficult task is a challenge. They dearly love starting controversies. Roosters express themselves very well both in writing and speech. They are knowledgeable in most subjects you wish to discuss. When you challenge them you must be prepared for a long fight. Their stamina is amazing and they win their point at all costs. Even when they are wrong, they will still be right in one way or another!

Roosters can be blunt and brutal. Their direct approach to life makes them poor diplomats. They speak their minds with little regard for the feelings of others.Why should others be upset? Roosters are right, aren't they?

Roosters are good at handling money and their self-control with keeping budgets is phenomenal. They are not miserly, and in fact, they can be extremely generous and giving. They simply want their finances in complete accord, and yours, too. If you have trouble, Roosters quickly straighten you out whether you want them to or not. Don't be ungrateful either, you should be glad they condescended to help you at all. Roosters are careful with their time and you only deserve so much, so plan things well. Roosters are sincere in their desire to help and no one can carry out important tasks like them. Just be certain your orders are explicit and don't expect them to improvise for you on their own time.

Roosters are ambitious and they reach for the sky. They have a deep passion for their chosen fields, and they are very creative. They usually start out young in life and enjoy success early in their careers. They do well in their own businesses. They are meticulous and competent enough to make things work. When they set out to accomplish something, they leave no stone unturned. They probe deeply with their inquisitive, busy minds. They never remain still. Roosters must learn that some things take time. No matter how competent they are, they can't reprogram the whole world to fit their schedules! They achieve the most amazing things, but Roosters always become eccentric over the final details.

Never underestimate Roosters. They are optimistic and dauntless. They never change their course of action even if the world thinks they are wrong! They are so determined to make some of their wild and idealistic plans work that their plans often do work. With their many splendid talents and eccentric ways, Roosters hit it big!

Dogs are honest,straightforward,and friendly. They are extremely protective of themselves and their loved ones. With a passion for fair play and justice, they never fail to rescue you time after time. They may rant and rave, but they never rest until they right the wrong. They are true humanitarians and suffer with the world.In spite of their concern for others,social graces and fancy parties do not impress them. Having sharp eyes, they will see through people's motives. They are quite private about their personal lives and someone prying into their affairs make them secretive and withdrawn. Once you gain their confidence, they open up freely.

Once Dogs classify you, they rarely change their minds. There are few in-betweens. Dogs perceive things either in black or white. You are either friend or enemy. Luckily, they are good judges of character and have superb insight into human nature. Dogs are tolerant of their friends. Before they approve of you, the friendship must develop slowly with a variety of meetings and conversations. If they look you over and decide they can trust you, you remain in their hearts forever. If you need them, Dogs will be there.

When the time is right, Dogs work long and hard, but they know how to relax, and enjoy their home and loved ones. The Dogs have playful moods and a great sense of humor. They have quick emotions and if you offend them, they will snarl and insult you with expertise. They forgive with the same speed. Dogs are intelligent and well-balanced. With their stable minds, they make good counselors or psychologists. They endure during any crisis situation. They are trustworthy people and know how to keep a secret. Being efficient and very diplomatic, they can hide their prejudices well. Most Dogs have a comfortable home and do well.Dogs always defend what is theirs and have a high sense of value. Home and family come first,and Dogs will work to see that they have the best!

Boars are self-reliant, very sociable, dependable,and extremely determined. Boars are peace lovers and don't hold grudges. They hate arguments, tense situations, and try to bring both sides together. In life they make deep and long-lasting friendships. Boars enjoy social gatherings of all kinds, and look for parties to attend. In fact, Boars must watch themselves so that their incessant pursuit of pleasure doesn't interfere with other aspects of their lives. Boars belong to clubs and they make terrific fund raisers. They have a real knack for charity and social work. Boars always listen to problems. They won't mind getting involved and try to help. Boars have big hearts. A problem that Boars have is that they are too innocent and naive. Being honest and trustworthy themselves, they have a hard time understanding the motives of those with less scruples.

Boars do not dazzle or shimmer. They possess the old-fashioned chivalry that grows on you until you totally depend on it. It is so easy to trust Boars. They have a calm expression and a sincere manner. They are blessed with endurance and work steadily at tasks with great patience until completion.

Once Boars arrive at a decision nothing stops them. Of course, before they reach that decision they weigh all the pros and cons. They definitely want to avoid complications. Sometimes they ponder so long they miss the opportunity altogether. But never mind, Boars always believe in miracles, and miracles always happen to them. Fortune favors Boars. They always find someone to help them without having to beg.

In romance, if not careful, Boars may be taken advantage of. Boars trust everyone and believe everything they hear. They are unselfish and enjoy helping their friends. Although they are gullible, they are actually quite intelligent and know how to take care of their own. If you hurt their feelings, Boars often carry the pain for years. They have a hard time saying no to those of concern. Often they wish they had said no.

Boars will always be looking for ways to work off all their extra energy. They work and play hard. Even if they lose everything, Boars manage to bounce back. Their life path supply them with all they need. The Chinese believe Boars own the Horn of Plenty.

Chinese Zodiac Sign

Well, you should have heard of the Chinese Zodiac Signs, and how it follows the Lunar Calendar so the Chinese New Year Day is different every year, but always seems to be in February. Well this year it's on the 14th, and I'm sure you all know what day that is, Valentine's Day. And it's going to be the year of the Tiger. I was born on the year of the Rat and so are all my friends and everyone else in my year, or so I thought. I have just realized that some people might have been born in 1996 before Chinese New Year, so they would technically have been born on the year of the Boar. How stupid I must have been not to realize that. Well, my brother's got this scroll for the year 2010 and it's got the meaning for each animal. You know, all 12 and depending on which year you were born on you'd be like that. Well I found it quite interesting because it's sort of true =] and I think it's really reliable, depending, because it's true for me, I'm not sure about Molly but it's true for me =]. If you don't know what animal you are, the dates are beside the name, you can check and tell me if it's true for you as it is true for me =]. The next year where it'll be that animal will be in bold =].

Rat (1936, 1948, 1960, 1972, 1984, 1996, 2008, 2020)- Rats are swift and intelligent, and they're adaptable to new environments. Rats are very willing to trust people and tend to be cheated easily.
Ox (1937, 1949, 1961, 1973, 1985, 1997, 2009, 2021)- Oxes are inspiring, bright and patient, but egoistic.
Tiger (1938, 1950, 1962, 1974, 1986, 1998, 2010)- Tigers are determined, aggressive and selfish. They also have a craving for success.
Rabbit (1939, 1951, 1963, 1975, 1987, 1999, 2011)- Rabbits are talented, honest and gentle, yet sometimes can be indecisive and passive.
Dragon (1940, 1952, 1964, 1976, 1988, 2000, 2012)- Dragons are passionate and helpful, yet stubborn. They possess high quality and potential for great accomplishment.
Snake (1941, 1953, 1965, 1977, 1989, 2001, 2013)- Snakes are meticulous, agile and adaptable, but very high tempered. They are able to get along with anyone.
Horse (1942, 1954, 1966, 1978, 1990, 2002, 2014)- Horses are strong, enthusiastic, generous with money and good at socializing.
Sheep (1943, 1955, 1967, 1979, 1991, 2003, 2015)- Sheeps are refined and loyal. They're persevering and patient but also rather timid and prefer to work step by step.
Monkey (1944, 1956, 1968, 1980, 1992, 2004, 2016)- Monkeys are intelligent, quick-witted and adaptable, yet inpatient and restless. They also enjoy being in the limelight.
Rooster (1945, 1957, 1969, 1981, 1993, 2005, 2017)- Roosters are reliable, independent and they're devoted to work. They enjoy hearing praises but do not take criticism too well.
Dog (1946, 1958, 1970, 1982, 1994, 2006, 2018)- Dogs are honest, and with integrity. They're full of the sense of justice and always stand up for their friends. It is their drawback to trust others easily.
Boar (1947, 1959, 1971, 1983, 1995, 2007, 2019)- Boars are self-confident, full of vigour and determination. They fit into the leadership role effortlessly, but are not very flexible in thinking.

I'm going to add some more detailed ones in future.

Songs

OMG, I am singing along to When It Rains by Paramore and some other songs that Molly listens to. They're not exactly the songs that people would know, as in my other friends that are slightly more normal. I didn't actually think I'd start listening to the songs Molly does, and now I am, and singing along, AND I think I almost know it off by heart. I mean it keeps echoing around my head and I'm listening to it right now! I means it's just one of these times where there's something you don't think you'll like but then you really really love it. You know those times, I'm sure you've always experienced that. Lol, god Robert has got this new space thing like this globe and when u turn it on in the dark the words and things get shone around the room and it says things! Lol, I find it quite funny, what's it called? A Planetarium I think, not sure. Well, it looks quite interesting I guess, now he's telling me to turn off the music! No way! I love When it Rains! Oh god, I'm turning into one of those weird people, you know, can't live without whatever, I can't live without this song, oh well. Cya people! I'm going to read Molly's blog =].

Doctor Who: End of Time

OK, anyone seen the End on Time Part 2 Doctor Who yet? I have just finished watching it and I think it was amazing, sort of. I thought the Doctor was going to die die, you know. But he couldn't have because that would be the end and there wouldn't be any more parts, unless he was like the Master and someone revived him. Dunno. Though I find it quite ironic that the 4 knocks were actually done by Wilfred Mott, I mean I thought it would be someone evil, like a monster or something like that, not him. Ironic. Yes I know I've still got guests over but I can still watch TV you know, and they enjoyed it too =D. Yes, I think the Doctor at the end he was aiming to go to a time and see Rose when she knew him, but he went too far back and she didn't know him at all lol =] idiot. I just came up with this thought, Time Lords can only regenerate 12 times, so in total there would be 13 Doctors, and that would last in total about 60 years I think, ever since it started and finishes sometime in the future. But once the Doctor actually dies, that'll be Doctor Who finished, forever. So I thought it would be good if you know how the Doctor has sort of absorbed whatever it was when he was the 9th Doctor. Remember, to save Rose and then from that time on everytime he regenerates he sort of glows. Well what is because he did that it doubled the amount of time he could regenerate? Wouldn't that be cool? Well not everyone thinks so, so oh well, when have I ever come up with good ideas? Well anyway, at the very end when the Doctor changed, that was slightly weird and if you ask me he doesn't seemed to have changed much. He might have changed in looks and everything but he still seemed like the same Doctor to me =]. I think they could have chosen someone else as the new Doctor, someone much better looking than him lol I kid I kid. Well maybe =]. Forget I said that k? Good, so I think you should see that, and Merlin, and Harry Potter =].

Believe in Telepathy?

OMG I almost forgot about this. But talking to Molly has just reminded me. Well, we think that our minds are sort of linked, you know, telepathically. And I have proof, well sort of anyway =]. See, we keep saying the same things at the same time, or a second later, and it is slightly creepy, but also funny at the same time. I have just remembered because on msn right now we were saying the same things. It was so funny. I don't really know what else to write about this, but seriously, we're not even related! I'm Chinese and she's 1/4 French and 3/4 Scottish I think. I know she's definitely 1/4 French. This is weird, but so funny. It's just like, "Are you thinking what I'm thinking?" and I reply "I'm not sure, is it __________" then "Yes, that is exactly what I was thinking, weird eh?" Yes, that's basically it, if you've ever experienced it you would know what I was on about. God, so fun, I wonder if we could develop this mystical power. Molly just said that we're like Zack and Cody, you know, from The Suite Life of Zack and Cody, you watch that? I do, I think it's sooo funny and Molly does too. God, talking to Molly and I shouted SUFFERING! again and she's said I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU DID THAT! *unrolls scroll* lol. Remember I said the list she made, yeah, so funny. Well you know, I'm ranting about anything random again and repeating myself. So I'm going to stop, bye and Happy New Year!

Visitors

It's New Year's Day and I'm officially bored. We've got visitors over and I have just managed to escape, sort of, Julia is right beside me playing with Tibby. Well, you see, every Christmas, New Year or Chinese New Year (yes I am Chinese) one of those days we'd have guests over and on the other days it would be us going to someone else's house. Well today they're here and I'm officially bored. Nothing to do, I'm not good at suggesting what to do, I'm not good at leading, well sort of, I dunno! Well on the bright side I'm writing this, they're not bothering me because they're too caught up playing with Tibby. Well who wouldn't? She's sooooooo cute =]. Well, I don't really like visitors. I mean, for Christmas, sort of, well on the 27th anyway, we went to Si's house (don't ask, he hasn't got an English name, just Chinese) and he tried to convince us he was 12, yeah right, he's 17! I got soooo bored; boredom is becoming so normal for me. Anyway, now they're here (and I think I'm just repeating myself)and talking. My mum wonders how come I can talk to over an hour on msn with my friends, god, they talked for 6 hours straight last time, and now they've even arrived early. I'm not going to be able to go to bed until 11:30! Well, at least they're learning to entertain themselves. I really need to reward Tibby in some way, for drawing their attention to her rather than me trying to find something for us to do, yes, freedom! Oh no, yes, like Julia just said "Oh no, she was our only fun thing and now she's off" Tibby please distract them a little bit longer. Oh well, Robert is doing that. Well, Robert just opened my wardrobe and I hit him, not my fault he should not look through my stuff without my permission, especially when we have visitors. So.... talking to Molly right now, yes! I'm feeling so happy! Someone to talk to about anything random! So, bye!

Happy New Year Everyone!

Hiya people! Can you believe it's 2010 already!? I can't, 2009 seemed to have passed so quickly, seriously, I feel like I barely got to enjoy it. So.... anyone got a New Year's Resolution yet? I'm going to try to be more calm when my brother starts shouting and blaming me for doing something I didn't. And being everyone's friend =]. I tend to get along with quite a lot of people but I also scare some people, but that's a good thing cause they annoy me more than you can ever imagine, really, so they fear me, more than Molly and that's a big surprise, never thought it was possible. So, I'm going to try and change that. I'm also going to work harder (maybe) and try to get better marks on my test, full marks would be good =]. I'm probably going to try to be less random but we all know that's going to be impossible =]. I mean, it's unlikely anyone really knows what I'm on about =] and the smilies are a bit confuzing =] =] =] =] =] =] =] =] =] =] OK stopping =]. Anyway, I've just realized all the things I've put on my blog from last year and I seem to keep forgetting other people can read it, especially people I know and I don't even seem to realize I've put them on. I sort of just type what I think so you know. Better change some things =].