OMG! I feel as though I can't breathe!

Well.... today... just.... *sigh*..... Well, as you would know, I like this guy in 4th year called Louis. (If you don't know either look back, well there isn't much to look back on, go and see Molly's blog, generalhorrorfreak.blogspot.com) He has brown hair and the most gorgeous blue eyes.... *sigh*.... Well I was in the Library at break as usual doing my Chemistry homework which I just got like the period before (yes I know, I'm a geek but I have my reasons for being in the Library and I had to find and excuse to be there). Anyway, I was there doing my homework and someone walked past me and said "Hey". I didn't actually realize who it was until I looked up, Louis.... (well that's my reason, in Winter he's usually in the Library at break, occasionally at Lunch, no I do not stalk him even if I know half of him time-table, I do not!) He sat right opposite me every time I looked up I could just see him.... Then I realized I needed to draw a graph for an experiment, typical, I didn't think of bringing a ruler. I thought of asking Louis if he had one I could borrow because in a way we are friends, well that's what he says anyway. He only started really having an actual conversation with me last Friday. Somehow he knew my name (I don't know how because I've never told him my name and don't even ask how I know his) we were just having a random conversation with his friends, I have no idea what their names are. Well we were just talking. He asked me if I was good at maths 'cause he had maths homework. Well I sort of managed to ask him if he had a ruler at that time, because he came over to talk to me. It was quite funny, he said "Do I look like I have a ruler? Do you have some answers I can borrow?" I thought it was really funny, but that could be because I really like him, I'm sure no-one else would find that funny. Then we had this conversation, well I had a conversation with his friends more that with him. I met another one of him friends and everything and I got a ruler from him. Can't remember his name, I think it just flew out of my mind. I'm feeling guilty because they all remember my name and all I can remember is what Louis does. But they were really nice too, and they thought I was cool. At first when that new guy came Louis' friend just said "Do you know Jenny, how can you not know Jenny? She's cool" Well that's a first; no-one would say I was cool, but Louis agreed and I felt like I couldn't breathe..... OMG I'm feeling so guilty that I can't remember their names apart from Louis'. I think Molly's right, I am just the limit, all I can really think about when I see him is.... well.... you know. So nice, his friends are really nice too, and they say we're friends. Well would you look at that, I've made friends with boys that are like 2 years older than me, and one of them is the one I love (yes I know, I more than just fancy him, I love him). I felt so happy, well Louis got a piece of golden tinsel from somewhere and was playing with it. When I was leaving and handed it to me and said it was a gift. Ahhhhhhh..... *sigh*..... I am going to treasure that piece of tinsel forever...... (what? Yes I know, I'm sad, don't need to tell me that, I even found his Bebo page). I am so happy, and he made me laugh at lunch-time as well, in like the last five minutes. I had Chess Club and when I went to the Library to find Molly barely anyone was there. I sat at the table and saw him. He smiled at me..... I am so so so happy today! And I could hardly breathe. Well I hope to talk to him tomorrow in the Library as well if he's there, I've still got that Chemistry homework to do, it's for after the holidays but I need an excuse to be in the Library. Louis never used to be in the Library, but he's in the Library every break now, since last Thursday. I wish it was true that is was because I'm usually there and he just wanted to talk to me, but how would I know? Just wishful thinking I guess. How much I wish that he had the same feelings for me as I do him...... : ) Just how much I wish.....