I feel no more guilt! Halfly

Well this morning I was having a panick attack were I didn't know what to do, so I asked Pallavi, and it didn't go too bad. As in I went through the door from the stairs from the Library upwards, and there were soooo many chairs, but barely anyone. Just a few people scattered about. Phew. All the way through when we were waiting (which we had to do for 45 minutes!) I could hear my heart thumping in my chest and I had to keep wiping my hands on my skirt because they kept sweating. When I went up I had calmed down a bit, or at least I tried to and failed. I think I did pretty well, better than I thought anyway. But I didn't win it, somebody in F3 I think did. And the thinrg was, the only thing I didn't do good was because I 'Played a bit faster' for the judge's liking. Apart from that he said he liked my technic etc. And then everyone else he had more than one improvements for, so I thought, wow, only the fact that I played a little fast, I did quite well. But in the end I didn't get it, that makes no sense! If one person didn't like the speed it doesn't mean anyone else didn't. Seriously. Well then my mum said she thinks I did really well and I should have won the prize (wow, first time my mum ever thought I did better than other people, yay!) and she said everyone clapped longer when I was done (I don't know if that was true, but the aplose certainly held until sometime after I had got back into my seat, when for other people it ended before they got back to their seats (yay! I did something good!). Well I found that my face was boiling hot my my hands were freezing cold. It must have been because of all the sweat. Anyway, so I sort of ran back to class, well RE and Mr Goodey said, "What, did you have to play the Piano while you were running?" don't some people just get the fact that I needed to get back to class and catch up? Jeez. Lol =]. Oh yeah, and I found out the name of the guy who lent me that ruler. He plays the Snare Drums and was in one of the competitions, he's called Cameron Lockheart or something like that. So hah! I feel no more guilt! I do know his name now! Now there's just the other guy, then I will have known the names of all the F4 that are Lewie's friends that talked to me. Yay! No more guilt!
Anyway, so the rest of the day went quite boringly, unless you count me seeing Lewie and his friends. They were sitting outside the doors into the Main Building on the side nearer to Margaret Harris. No fair, that used to be my space, I always sat there in Form 1 :(, that was my space. Blah blah blah, I didn't even do my Biology test because I had to go for my Piano Exam, it didn't go too badly actually, the Examiner was oddly cheerful, well very very cheerful, which made me less nervous, yay!