Never let Molly hit you

Well today firsty, at break I believe, we were in then Library, and Lewie was throwing a bag over the top of a shelf or whatever, and then Molly hit on my left arm, and it really, really, really hurt. So then I went outside with Kirsty, but I wanted to sit outside the Library at the stoney place whatever, but Kirsty didn't want to. And then Lewie came out like 5 seconds later, and I just decided, OK going, and shouted, Kirsty, wait up! And got out of the gates just before Lewie, as in I literally just slipped infront of him, I'm not sure that was a good idea. Blah blah blah then I was talking to Chloe on outside the Main Building where we could sit at the steps, and Lewie was still outside the Library talking to a group of his friends. Blah blah blah and Chloe said something about the Gummy Bear song, and how funny it was. Well I found that out for myself later, and it was the weirdest song I'd ever heard. And then we were talking to Ellis and I think she and Kirsty finally get along. Great, that took forever. And then some time later Lewie went round. Well..... You know I was just reading over all the dreams I've had that I've written on my blog to put on my Blog of Dreams, and I have realized just how great I was able to put my feelings into the text that long ago. I think something about me has changed, I seem to have lost most of my emotions, or at least barely any remain. I think I'm just a bit too scared to say things now, or at least too confuzed. I can't convey my feelings to people any more, and I definitelly can't make them clear in text. How I wish that never happened and I could still write in a way that puts my feelings into the passage.
Well then, tomorrow I've got the Piano Exam and Competition, and I'm soooo nervous. I think I'm going to badly mess it up. Some people have told me I'll be fine and wished me luck, but I wish he would wish me luck. If he did, maybe I'll do really good, I wish he would wish me luck...