OK, first this morning I got the 8X but I didn't know the road was closed so that it would go another way and past the stop that I needed to get off at. It went all the way to the round about before Borders when I could get off and I thought I would be late and speed walked all the way to the school. Well I wasn't late. Then after regi going to PSE I got proof! And I wouldn't have got it if I hadn't been, well I might have, well... I was looking at my French classroom because that's Lewie's regi class, I have a reason for knowing that and it was an accident! Anyway, now I definitely know that's his regi class. Anyway, saw him comming out and more or less just slipped through the door. Then I was desperate to keep him in my sight, I have no idea why! I just was! So I saw him going up the stairs right, and he was looking at me, or at least looking down. And then just by looking away to the other side when I caught his eye, well my heart skipped. My heart rate changed so quickly in a split second and I felt dizzy and could hardly breathe. Well, I can see it's worse than before. Or maybe I've just forgotten some things during the holidays.
Anyway, so we haven't got some teachers because they're all stuck, so are many of the pupils. Stuck somewhere far off. Blah blah blah, everything else boring.
But there was at lunch when I had to go to the Tin Pan Ali rehearsal, and I didn't really have to do anything, yet. And I still don't know the words to the songs. Then when we were let out I went to the Library, and I just went through the door and passed Lewie. Damnit. I did what I usually did, avoided his eyes and walked all the way round, sort of. Except I think it was more obvious that I was staring at the ground this time. Then I went to read the bulletin, and he was at the corner bit place there with one of his friends no idea who. I was reading and at the same time trying not to move at all. But still, I somehow managed to see his reflection. It would have been really stupid for me to turn around, but I could see his reflections. But I'm not sure on what... it might have been the glass... I'm not actually sure where I saw his reflection. I only know that I could see his reflection. God this is confuzing.
Then before Biology I saw him again, and just tried to ignore him. It did not go too well. But to take my mind off of that, we saw our teacher disect a sheep's eye in Biology. Ewwww. I felt sick even when it was just there and not been disected yet.
Alright, Leng Medal. I was at like the very end, and I was sweating all the way through it. My hands were freezing cold in the end. And when I went up, my heat was pounding so hard in my chest that I could hardly breathe. I didn't win. But anyway. So I was in the line to sort of register, and I saw Andrew Kelly, so I just tapped him on the back. He smiled and said "I've been standing here for 15 minutes. This line is the only thing going slower than the planes!" Well that's good, at least someone is cheery. But you know, I needed someone I was familiar with. So then I sat beside him, nice to be with someone you know. And I actually realized how nice he is. Well, not as annoying as he is in Maths, mainly cause it's Maths, and he hates it when I point out he's wrong, which I do pretty often. So you know, mainly he's just smile at me if we caught each other's eyes. Which happened once just because I turned around. And I have also noticed that lately I seem to have been seeing the good side in everyone. Seriously, everyone. Even beginning to like Michael who I hated for half of the year in Form 1. Or at least just prefered to annoy or ignore. It's good that he can put up with me in Chess, especially when I start playing against the rules, which is fun. He doesn't get annoyed at me, he actually doesn't really mind. So good, somebody who doesn't take it so seriously =]. And I'm trying not to criticize him about Chess, especially when he makes really stupid mistakes, but I still can't help but point them out. But it's nice when he says hi to me and smiles. I just smile warmly back like I did to Andrew today. Okay, what the heck am I talking about? Seeing the good side in people *sigh* i.e. even the small, miniscule good side of Jemma. Maybe non-existent but still. At least I have more people to be nice to, rather than scare like Ray. Though I'm not sure that I so much as scare him than annoy him, but it's all good fun.
OK, I have no idea why I started talking about all that, but back to the Leng Medal. I didn't win, and outside I was going to call my mum, because I dind't know where she was. Mrs Scott Brown said to me "Well done Jenny" and started on about everything I got right "And you're going to do it next year" That was funny, sounded more like a statement. I think it sort of was. Like one of those joking 'You'll do it or else' ones =]. Blah blah, and I'm here ranting on about things. And Eilidh was saying how Love is a gift and my reply was just 'I wish'. Well, *sigh* I think I'll just got back to writing my story for now.
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