Think I'm Over Him (Not)

Well guess what, on Saturday and Sunday night I've been having dreams about Lewie, and guess what? I saw him today, in the Library, for the first time in, what a month. I was sort of beginning to think, "I'm over him, I can act normal again" and things like that, but no. When I saw him my heart like, I dunno, if it could jump it would have went a mile. Not seeing him for so long seems to have made it worse, and my dreams don't exactly make it any better, seeing how he's there but I just can't see his face. And I couldn't remember the dreams at all, they sort of just faded and I couldn't remember a thing, well now I do. And then, when we left the Library, I sort of, brushed past him, like again, why do I keep doing that?! I know I've said that I'm trying to forget him, and I really am, but I just can't. I'm writing poems, the next thing is probably going to be songs, I'm going to have to keep myself away from sheets of paper when I'm near the Piano. Great, see, have you ever had this happen to you, where the more you try to avoid or forget something, the more it seems impossible that you can get it, the more you want it. More and more and more. THIS ISN'T BLOODY FAIR! I just can't forget him...
Anyway, onto the other things that happened today. Rogers is back (damn him) and he had no idea how to calculate the circumference or the area of a circle, so I sort of had to help him. Well OK, no I didn't not have to help him, but I did, 'cause although I don't seem like it, I can be quite nice and helpful. The only people I like annoying are the ones that really really annoy me. Like Ray! I hit him, accidentally, in the eye, then I hit him over the head with my History folder (on purpouse obviously) then after school, hit him and he slammed into the wall. It was quite good, everyone gave me a high five =]. And in History, well, the boys played a joke and they tried to lock our teacher outside, buuuuut they got into trouble. I'm not going to name who, no I was not one of them, do I really seem like someone who'd do that? Well yes maybe, but not on a teacher no way, and I don't like locking doors, I'm scared a monster will be in there with me too. Yes, a bit childish but hey, it's me.
Skipping aaaalll the way to Tin Pan Ali we've seen the last couple of auditions and were going to see the casts list on Monday I think, next week, or maybe even this Wednesday. Bet I didn't get a good part, bet I didn't even get a part, I could just be in the Courus, of course, nothing wrong with that, but I actually want a part. I think it'd be fun and I want to prove I can actually do something with my life, seeing how my parents think I can't do anything useful with my goddamned life. I'm hoping I can, and I'm thinking I can, I can't be bad at everything, can I? Anyway blah blah blah nothing else interesting appart form the fact that Molly has been banned from the Conputer for a week and she's blamming me for it. I mean I wasn't even there! How can she blame me. Yes I can blame her for messing up my dream because she sort of did. She was in it and she messed it up. Seeing how we're Py-Sister (because we can sort of read each other's mind, no not making it up here) and she appeared in my dream I can sort of blame her, I mean, who knows? She might have sued her powers to enter my dream, and totally mess it up. Basically, she buzzed me, made me scream right infront of Lewie, and made it look like I screamed 'cause I saw him. Thanks a lot Molly, you even mess up my dreams. Sort of.... Anyway, yeah, soooo bored right now because I have to go read Chinese in a couple of minutes so I'm typing super fast right now, seriously I should do a test and see how many word I can type in a minute, that's be cool. I'm just typing away and I wasn't even looking at the keyboard some time ago when my mum came into the room, I didn't want her to see what I was writing so I was keeping an eye on her while typing, how cool is that? I just love typing and I'm typing really really really fast right now, I'm not even following the system, you know, where you use some fingers to type some letters and not others. I hate using my pinky, so I never really use them unless I'm pressing the shift button which I do all the time for capital letters. God I'm about to do it right now just for the beginning of a word. Ok I'm just blabbing on randomly like I usually do, you see I do that when I'm sooo bored and I've got nothing to do, I blab on randomly and occasionally repeat myself. Am I repeating myself right now? I'm not sure. But I just watched Doctor Who, the 1st ever episode with Donna. I like Donna =] she's funny in a not really funny but funny way. Hmmm.... usually that'd make sens eto me but not to anyone else but right now it's not even making sense to me. I need to stop typing. Bye!