Hmmm..... nothing happened really, well in Maths my calculator didn't have the fractions button, and Mrs Oliver told me to check the instructions, oh man! I hate instructions, they're just this sheet of paper with words on it to tell you how to use something and then it turns out it wasn't very intructive at all! And in Chemistry, did I every mention that I sit between 2 boys? Marshall and Jack, and then Ronan sits right behind me. Well it is slightly boring, well sort of, I just have to sit there and nothing else to do, though it is quite fun to listen to their strange conversations and arguements, and I often add in pointless unhelpful comments, its quite fun actually, they don't seem to mind much. Oh yeah, did I mention that time when I was saying how it's sad that Pluto isn't a planet anymore because it's too small and I tried to explain to Jack that it's just like kicking you out of a group because you're small. He didn't seem to get it, though he did find it funny, and by the way this is Jack Houston, yes too many Jacks, and things get sooo confuzing! Well at break I saw Lewie and he was with a group of friends, as usual, and I'm still thinking I must be imagining it, but he became more still when I walked past, God, shut up Jenny and stop imagining things! Anyway, reading in the library, there's Liam, annoying, blah blah, blah.
Well then, back in Chemistry, we were doing this experiment with acid and different metals, and Jack just kept bringing the burning splint at the wrong time, so Marshall would put it out, and stupidly trid to put it out with his fingers once, burned himself. Yeah, then Jack wanted to light it again when it was soooo small, but Mrs Spinks wouldn't let him. Hmmm.... and then those two just being their usual selves, along with Ronan, boring! Oh yeah, yesterday in Graph. Comm. Ronan asked me, Erin and Emily if we thought he was bitter, I think, I just said yes and so did everyone else. Anyway, back to English, we were working together in a group, there were 5 groups and I was in group 5 with Kirsty and Jack. And this time it's Jack Hamilton. God this is sooo confuzing! Jack kept trying to write on my folder Murray loves Jenny, which is true apparently, no I do not freak! Well once he got it on, I couldn't rub it off, oh man! So I had to ruin my beautiful clean folder by scribbling it out, I'll have to find some way to make it look nice and artistic while covering it up. Oh yeah, and I want to kill Mila because she told Ray about Lewie, but just saying that it was a 4th year and I stalk him, which I do not do! But that's not the point, how dare she! A secret is suppose to be secret, that's why it's called a secret, hellooo??? Seriously, and then at Chess when I told her it wasn't a nice thing to do she pretended she knew nothing about it! While at the meantime I was losing to Kind, oh big surprise. Michael was being expescially unhelpful, getting me to make a move that ruined everything. Hm. Everyone hates him and I used to as well, but then he started talking to me and we get along now, and I think he's actually quite funny, then again, I laugh at everything, just about, so at least him being able to make me laugh is a good thing. Well King kept checking me with variouse pieces like rook, knight, bishop, so I jsut said "Stop checking me!" "While at the mean time I'll do some checking as well" Michael was looking at the conclusion King was writing for English or whatever it was, it sort of makes sense and it's sort of funny but not just sort of, oh it makes sense forgoodness sake! Ah yes, and Michael took it the wrong way when I told Mila it wasn't nice of her to tell Ray that, and Michael thought I fancied Ray, God there was a long and awkward conversation, and if he doesn't believe that fact that I do not fancy Ray I will murder him, and Mila at the same time. I think I'll set them up on a date with each other... hmmm.... Mila was being mean to Michael which isn't a nice thing, I just kept telling him to ignore Mila. Hmm.... in History me Neil, Callum and Archie, we were playing this game, where you know, you have to say the colour it is rather than the colour it says. I did quite well, but then stuttered after a long time, and the same happened to them, because you might be able to do it, but seriously, it gets very confuzing when you do it for a long time.
OK then, now going to when we were going down for the PE bus, this I'm sure I imagined it, but I know I didn't because I know this was real, but I doubt it was in the same way as before. I saw Lewie and we had eye contact and kept it for like 3 seconds, until I looked away. This is like the first time he's actually looked me in the eye for ages, yes I doubt it's the same as it used to be, he probably just saw me and I dunno, just... I don't know. And then, after games I got the bus back to school and I was with Rebecca, and then I saw Lewie comming that way. I sort of walked up to the pillars a bit and everything. I kept my head down looking at my phone, so I wouldn't know even if he did look at me or realize I was there. He was with one of his friends, why is he never alone? Someone is always with him, always. This sucks like so much. Well then, after that, I just, dunno. I seriously think he's trying to avoid me now, argh! Why did I do it? Right now I'm pulling at my hair and I wouldn't usually do that! It's just one of these times where you feel like you have to curl up into a ball to protect yourself against something, or hurt yourself enough to stop the pain inside of you. Trying to stop the pain inside of you....
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