All things come to an end

Yes, all things come to an end, especially the good things. You know, the moon will wane (whatever that really means) and the snow will melt and etc. You know. Well because of a certain somebody who will not be named until the end has already destroyed my good and happy mood. Yes, thank you very much.
Anyway, first thing. Isn't it just stiffling today? OK. In Assembly it was like all different and everything and some people didn't have seats blah blah. Well, in French we got a change of seats, yet I was still in the same seat in the second row! I have been there the whole year! Good thing is I got moved away from Findley. Well, more like Findley got moved away from me. We had Mrs Craig for Maths and it wasn't actually that bad, but that meant we were in Bonar and further away from the Main Building, but we weren't late to Chemistry.
On the way to Chemistry I saw Lewie and yeah... Molly told me to not look back and just keep walking forward etc. And yeah... And then at break we ran to Physics to sign a card for Jessica and everything. Then went to Margaret Harris to check my Violin Lesson things, but she wasn't there. Well going up to Margaret Harris I saw Lewie... And then when we came back out he was sort of leaning against the railings and everything. I sort of... stared... at him till I couldn't see him out of the corner of my eye anymore and yeah... Um...
In Chemistry we played with dry ice! Apparently it's something like -70 degrees =]. I kept my finger on it for too long and it started to hurt. In fact, it still does. I told Jack to do it and it was funny because he sort of shouted out. Lol. Jack Houston by the way. Oh, and Adam also said I was sweet and innocent. Basically it was like this. I'm not sure what the earlier conversation was about.
"We should get Jenny to do it. She's sweet and innocent." Adam
"Like a muffin" Marshall
"Like a muffin...? That's racist" Adam
"No. I called her a muffin, how is that racist?" Marshall
"It just is, you called her a muffin" Adam
"Yes because she's sweet and innocent. Jenny, you don't find that racist do you?" Marshall
"No... I don't" Me!
"Yes, see. That's because she's sweet and innocent" Marshall
You see, it was very confuzing. And I'm actually quite surprised I remember it. But seriously, what world do they live in? Oh, hold on... Quite a lot of people think I'm innocent. Emily, Akdas... Ray certainly doesn't! Lol. Yeah... oh yeah, anyway. Umm... hm...
OK, on the way to English I stopped to talk to Qing Qing and Akdas asked "Jenny is that your sister?" "No, I don't even have a sister!" And then blah blah. And he also said that Molly wasn't good enough to be my sister, because I'm too awesome. Yay! And in English Mrs Keogh was off and she said that we wouldn't do any work on A Midsummer Night's Dream and we would finish the film. But no. We had to do work on A Midsummer Night's Dream and we didn't get to watch the end of it. Humph.
Lunchtime I went to Chess first and we got chocolate! And then I got Michael's off him =]. Lol. And then Qing Qing took my gingerbread... :( Incidentally I've still got the chocolate btw, I've saving them for next week. Yeah... so I gave some people some gingerbread. I was playing against Keir. He sucked =]. Then I just kept teasing him by putting him into check but never checkmate, and whomever was watching just kept saying "Oh God, that's just torture." Lol, it was funny. And then after finally putting him into checkmate I went to Carnegie. I was just able to answer the last question while panting before the bell rang.
History, I was feeling really drowsy and everything. And then PE. I did something really stupid. I slipped down the stairs and landed on my ankle and I heard it sort of just crack. And I sat the whole double period out. Yay! With an ice pack =] Well until it all melted. Then I soaked my left ankle and just left it like that, it felt good. But now it's all red and buldgy and swollen. And I've began limping again. Damnit!
And then Molly just wouldn't believe me when I told her that Violin, Viola, Cello, Double Bass, they were just about the same. They're just in different octaves, but the notes and strings and fingerings are all the same. You just see them another way, but it you closed your eyes you're still doing the fingering the exact same way. Molly was just so annoying she kept telling me I was wrong and then she said the thing that hurt the most! It was just three words, but it cut so deep. It hurt so much that I started crying and had to dash to the bus and pretend it was just hayfever. I hate her. I never knew that that would hurt so much. I never thought she would say it in that tone say those words that would hurt the most. I never knew those words would hurt. I never knew those words would cut so deep.
She wouldn't believe me but I wouldn't give up because I knew that I was right. I knew the letters on the cello from Robert and I know the letters on the violin because that's what I'm learning. I can play the cello just as well as the violin because I know the fingering from the violin, so I know it's the same! But no, to try to get me to shut up she said "Shut up Jenny. Lewie isn't here you know" Lewie isn't here. Well obviously you have no idea. But I knew exactly what she meant as I was the one who told her! I never thought that she would use my emotions to her advantage *cries*. I keep thinking I can trust her yet I always find out that I can't, yet for some reason I always do! I'm too trusting, too many people and quizzes say that. *Sniffs* Obviously this means nothing to you, but I understand just what it means. She was saying that I should shut up because I was only doing that to impress Lewie and he was not there. I don't know why. I knew what she meant as soon as those words left her lips and she said them so... with such a final tone and slightly mocking. So yeah, I almost started crying and luckily at that time my bus came.
I don't know why those cut so deep. But that was all it took to ruin the good mood I had been in for 5-6 days straight. I had finally begun to feel like I was becoming the person I really wanted to be, and now it's gone again. Crushed by three simple words that brought back the truth to everything, and the grief that I had been able to build such a firm wall against - the thick brick wall which I had been continuesly attempting to build for the last 6 months. The one that always collapsed had finally been built to its strongest point, just to be knocked down by Molly and her three words. And when she said them it was like a lightningbolt struck my heart and it sunk to the very bottom of the dark ocean, just when it had begun it's ascend, reaching for the moon - the beautiful and calm moon.
God, I'm getting back to my depressed mood. Thank you very much Molly! Just when I was beginning to try to forget you have to bring it back! Seriously, have you not realized how casually and unemotionally has been the way when I mentioned Lewie's name? Now you've just brought everything back!
And I think I finally get that thing about butter. Well I was doing fine!