Always Ups and Downs

Well, the bright side of today, I've gotten 3 Christmas presents (Molly, Kirsty and Karen) a couple of cards and I won the prize for the Library Christmas Advent Calender, again. Down side of today, my toes froze to death and that was mainly my fault, couldn't find my music teacher for a form, not exactly my fault, and I couldn't do it, I didn't have the guts, so totally my fault.
Well, let's start on the good things that happened. I got Christmas Presents and I won the prize for the Library Christmas Advent Calender for Sunday, I got a pencil case and some more make-up =]. One boy from F1 got there, but he didn't get there fast enough. He saw me and got annoyed, "You're here like every day!" Well I'm not really, I only got the prize twice, and it was his fault that he didn't get there before me =]. Well, we didn't do any work in any of the classes =]. In German we watched the 7 Dwarves, in Maths we did a co-ordinated picture of a Christmas Snoopy =]! In Physics we had a tiny party and watched Elf, and we continued Elf in History. Then in the afternoon, in French we watched this weird thing which I have no idea what it was and in English we watched Van Helsing, I don't think I got what it was about, just Vampires and people dying and being bitten and things like that. When I got home (aka now) I found out I got a present from my best friends Karen! (She goes to a different school so, well, you know)
Now, the bad things. In the morning I got in so early and at first I thought it was real fun, I was breaking ice =] but then, my toes like so froze, and I couldn't go anywhere because I promised Zara I'd look after her bag for her. Well, at break time I was in the Library and I met Isabell (I think that's how you spell it) and we had fun talking about things and torturing Molly =]. Then... hold on, that belongs in the good side of things. Anyway, I saw Louis there *sigh* (no not a mistake you'll get why this is in the bad side of things in a minute) but I just couldn't do it, I couldn't go up to him and say anything, what I said would happen happened, I would see an opportunity, I'd wait cause I won't have the guts to do it, then before I know it it's too late and I'd regret it, yes that happened. Well then, at lunchtime I went up to the music department to get a form for music, she wasn't there, typical, and it's a long climb up to there as well! So, I was so annoyed at myself and then, just at the end of school, I thought I saw him, Louis, but then he seemed to just disappear, just like in my dream, great. But the thing is, I also saw him after French, and his friend saw me and, well, in a way waved, he didn't seem to see me at all. Why is it when I want someone to notice me they don't, and when I don't they do?
Well, that's basically what happened today, and I have got to do it tomorrow or I will absolutely kill myself. I have decided what I'm gonna do, I'm gonna write a note to him, it might have helped if I knew where his locker was, but I'm just gonna hand it to him, so either, I need co-operation from Molly, or I'll just have to find the guts to do it myself. Yeah, good, giving him a note is hopefully much better than actually telling him, I hope Molly will do it for me, 'cause I don't think I'll be able to do it myself :(. Wish me luck everyone, and if I'm not on ever again, it'll be either because I've killed myself, or..... I've killed myself, either of those 2. Better start writing my note, and will.